Fortune teller

Went to a fortune teller today at bugis. Didn't get the actual info yet as he said he need to calculate everything. I didnt noe exactly what is my time of birth so dunno the prediction will be accurate anot. My mother did not wanna tell me as asian thinks that by knowing ur time of birth and date, people can curse a spell on you. Was quite worry about my prediction coming though, as he said alot things bad about me by just looking at me. My friend went in but he didnt say too bad about her. Hope the actual prediction will be better. I went to fortune teller to seek an answer for my problems in life. But I know myself deep in my heart that I should trust no one and find a answer in myself. Forture telling is just a guide in life. I went with a half-hearted mindset. Just curious what it may turn out. I know my life havent been very good always. Hope it will turn the better soon.

my first post

I started this blog so that I can relate all my feelings and emotions somewhere. Even since my last birthday, 9th of dec, I been moved out to my boyfriend house for about 2months plus now. Is a terrible birthday gift I admit. I sobbed hard that day, with girlfriend cried seeing how heartbreak i am. I missed my parents of cause. But the agrument with my dad and elder sis have been so bad. I had depression at home. I cried in my room, wishing things will get better by years but it did not. My dad, being the impulsive type, and my sis, both have a real bad mouth that scold you like you're some useless child from the rubbish bin. Many people told me, we are one family, we should forgive one another.But since we are one family, why would them be so nasty to my mum and me? My mum had since moved back home. So she wanted me back too. But i decided not to go back. Friends and myself know, I am not happy there. for many years my ONLY hope is to moved out of the hse. is that desperate. I been crazy in there, having boyfriends, hoping they will marry me so i can moved out and stay happily ever after like the fairytales. Hoping someone will save me! I ever been with someone who is older than me by 9years. I been with two, each lasting for 2 years, although r/s is stable, but one of them turn out to be impulsive as well. My current boyfriend is younger than me one year, but he is nice. We going to be 2rd year soon. I having a great time with his family, I love them. This is the kind of family that I can never get in my life. Life is never fair. This phase I learned when I was 8yr old. I always called home, talking with my mum, visit her every saturday. But she is not pleased. She did not understand how i am feeling. She just want me to go back. I understand. But inside my heart, I feel that I am 21yr old now. I should seek for my own happiness. But being the soft-hearted person, I feel sad for my parents. No matter how they treated me. I am in a great dilemma now. Although I moved out, I do not feel happy at all. But I also do not wanna go back that house. My boyfriend is not helping me in any sense. Sigh..